Monday, December 1, 2008


Merry Christmas, you're fired!!
I wish it had gone that way. I wish they would have yelled at me and told me what a horrible job I was doing. But instead they thanked me for my hard work and dilligence, but times are tight right now and that I will be "let go" at the end of the month. It took everything I had not to cry in front of my boss and the president of the company. I was shocked, just last week I was told I had a long future with the company. I suppose that was a little to opptimistic of a view. But I was not the only one who was "let go."
I have had many thoughts run through my head today. Certainly one has been that of humbleness. I am grateful for Heavenly Father for looking out for me. I am glad I lost my job now and not when we have a baby to take care of. Harley certainly is a handful, but I think she will be ok with the cheaper dog food. I can't believe how much I have come to rely on a job to get me through life. Yes it is a means to supporting oneself, but it does not define who a person is. I am afraid that I let having a job define me. I was so happy, things were really going well for Kelly and I. But this is just a part of life and I mustn't let this get me down. It is a hard task not to blame the owners of the company and become bitter about the whole thing. Or even to hate the people who still have a job. I guess I am feeling a little unimportant. Obviously my job wasn't that important to the company.
We think we have life all figured out, planned to a T, but I didn't take into account the plan Heavenly Father has in store for me. A realization came to me that life isn't just about us, it is so much more. I am hoping there is a better job out there for me and this is but a trial of my faith. Worse things could have happened. I am grateful that I am only losing my job. God knows what I can handle and what I can't. Even though I think I can't handle this and have a nervous breakdown while driving home, He still made sure I got home safe. There is something great out there for me and this is just a giant shove in that direction.
So I am swallowing my pride and asking for help. At first I wasn't going to tell anyone about this event, but I decided that life is too short to suffer through it alone. So I need help. Anyone reading this blog, yes even you random blog stalkers, please rack your brains for any job leads. Anything right now would be awesome. Networking is one of the best tools out there, so don't be shy.
I am truly grateful for your freindship and support.